i dont even know if anyone reads this anymore .. anyway i'm on the verge of procrastinating .. going through some of my old emails, and memories, and pictures and .. i dont know. theres a lot of old stuff i have and a lot that ive misplaced (viruses, new computer hardrives etc) ..
were all in year 12 now, and i'm slowly preparing for my transition to the outside open world. and im scared .. not only because the bloody hsc is hard, but i'm scared that i know i will probably loose contact with many of you who ive grown up to love and cherish, and without school to link us together,

.. im scared were all going to grow up and go our own separate ways.
thats just something that is ineviatble. i know not a lot of people will read this .. but anyway ..

wanna thank first of all ..
tanya and lena for the countless memories, for all the times youve been there for me, my two longest friends :) for feeding me, not only with food, but with love, knowledge and the comfort that i know i can count on yous :) my 15th birthday was the best !! haha that was so random, but i knew it wouldnt have been possible without the two of you :) lenas house, tanyas preparations.

vanna, sarly and sok; ive been friends with vanna since y 5 :) and i remember we used to always walk home, or what ever , to our cars every afternoon and we continued walking each other to our cars until the end of year eight (when she deicded to ditch me for westbus) hehe. thankyou for all the korean music haha, and all the conversations, and our memories in year 8 when we'd go knowckin on tuans door to give him his prostitute shoes HAHA .. when you think about it, they were sarlys shoes .. haha speaking of sarly, just wanted to thank you for the memories haha especially green valley library .. haha tuesday afternoons was like pick up hour rofl. and finally sok !! can never forget year eight, that was the best! all our deep and meaningfuls, walking to derricks house and then running it back before we got our asses wooped, hy-po-ten-sue haha ?? athsma laugh .. your short pants ROFL ROFL ! i miss those old days, me, you, mushka and belles. :( miss them.

pav, sa, nat and twigs .. pav for haha the countless memories, the chronicoles of our notebooks, i have them haha, all the advice, for being there for me, for everything, for your love and comfort and care .. for providing a shoulder for me to cry on when i knew i couldnt depend on my other fucking gay halves (i.e jack etc.) the korean music and videos, the gossip, all the help youve given me at school with my work, i know that will always be someone i can depend on :)
sa (hehe) for our food tech lessons, talking about your boy craziness, washing the dishes together, damn i miss food tech in y10, just our conversations, cooking together cause i remember you were my partner, you just someone i know i can always just talk to, your a very neutral person you preston pig :)
nat, hahah i remember we were very close in year eight, and two things come up to my mind immediately when i think of our past .. chinese gardens, day out in the city with you haha and burwood for taks bbq. remember that bitchface broke our camera so you prayed LOL in that well and the camera started working again, i still have the pictrues, its in that album you gave me, the one you bought in thailand and its prettiful, ALSO that fight between me and you, to this day on forward i still belive mark is cuter (cant believe i remeber his name) not patrick (the starfish) haha.
twigs, hehe we were also very close .. miss our conversations, we used to talk about anything and everything and i still remmeber that day you were trying to seduce me by sucking on my collarbone on the volleyball courts HAHA, oops your secret is out ! i had a lot of photos of us on my old hardrive, just have to find it now. im glad were getting back in touch through maths, and just wanna let you know that i'm always going to be here for you whenever you need an ear, or a bitch haha :)

... i'll add in more memories FOR SURE!

and i'll promise to continue these testimonials, but i want to get back to loooking through my photos.

yeah, these are my childhood friends pretty much ;)
will continue on with ana and kat, lynn and mels lek :) JUST I LOV YOU ALL !!

ILOVEYOUALL. LOVE YOU LOVE YOU !

 

never ever have i felt the need to wish someone would completely disappear. and all i can say is that its your fault. i wish "that person" really did disappear. then things could go back to the way things were.

i dont hate you. i dont hate "that person". i hate myself for not doing something sooner to get you. and you make me feel this way. though theres never a chance you will ever read this. nor would most other people read this.

if you do read this then. i like you. more than i should. its a situation i dont want to be in. because im better than that. and i can get a better person than you. there are so many other guys out there. then why the fuck do i want you ?

we are just friends. but its so much more than that. i feel sorry for her because i'm not going to back down from you. as long as youre thinking about me. i win. as long as you keep taking me out. i win. as long as you see me after school, take me home, take me out. as long as you message me, call me. i win. "that person" will lose so many moments of your time to me. and i win.

"you always want what you cant have"   -- whoever made this quote. im going to show you that you're wrong. whatever i want. i will get. and i will get you. im not the same girl anymore. you'll see.

 

half a year has gone since the last person blogged here. its a new year, 2007. therfore, new memories, new resolutions, new beginnings.

but, we will never forget the memories and events of 2006. so, here are some photos of decemberO6/januaryO7 to make eveyone smile !

marians dress up party - katrina, natalie, tanya, ana, lynn, corinne

marians dress up party - corinne, michelle, pavii, natalie, vanna, marian, tanya, melissa gromof, lynn

katrinas christmas party - swk in 2006. + tayla and michelle. missing melissa inthavong.

katrinas christmas party - everyone outside having fun !

katrinas surprise birthday - the people who camee =)

this is a poem written by a teenager whose life was threatened by cancer. i hope you'll understand this poem. sometimes, some things seem so important, but when you take a step back you realise how insignificant it is when compared to other things. god bless this teenager.

happy twenty three months cookie!

050904 --pavii&steven